Sex, Drugs, & Other Magical Things

I never felt as free, as the first time I tried it.
I guess I was mad at myself, because I promised myself I wouldn't
Told myself I shouldn't
But I did, and I liked it.
He said everything was going to be ok, as he pushed the hair out of my eyes,
Don't worry I'll take care of you he said, and he did.

I never felt as free, as the first time I tried it.
The cool breeze didn't feel as it should against my bare skin.
I stood there naked looking over the cars and the clouds
And I felt free.
He said come inside, you'll catch a cold.
Told myself I should,
But I didn't, and I was fine.

I never felt as free, as the first time I tried it.
His naked skin pressed against mine,
As goosebumps traveled down my spine,
For moments there I slipped in and out of ecstasy.
He told me that I would
And I did, and I liked it.

He told me you'll never feel as free as the first time that you try it
He was right, and I haven't,
But perhaps I'll try and try again.

Let's Talk Sex Over Wine

(originally written the night of December 1st 2011)

Let's talk sex over a glass of wine, make that a full bottle of wine, Pino Grigio, to be exact, my favorite. Let's talk about this delicious Victoria's Secret Xmas commercial that just came on TV. I do love you, want you, need you, please me. Honestly, was not paying attention to what they were wearing, more so thinking about if I were a guy I would for sure love them, want them, need them. After all who doesn't love a sweet spicy nothing whispered in their ear? Who doesn't love a semi drunk ramble as well...

So I've been thinking lately about relationships and what it is that people are looking for out of them. In an ideal situation I think I would say I desire three things: (best) friendship/companionship, fun playtime, and a lover. I fortunately positively have the first two on lock, and surprisingly they each share the same name. Which I can't name here but we will call them the Fabulous Ds. Best friendship, I have the girls but then I have my best gay friend aka my husband, who thought we've only been "married" for less than a year things are going great. I can always count on him to be there when I need him, and through thick and thin sober or drunk we are always peachey keen. I can only think of one time where we were mad at each other for a second, which was just due to work stress and nothing less or more.

Onton the 2nd disclaimer: playtime and in the sense of an activity partner. I have one of these, he's straight, were platonic, and I love it. Now don't get me wrong dear readers, he's a great guy, amazing on paper and real life, and most all an amazing friend. We've never kissed never even kissed and its amazing, we have a mutual understand that we make each other look good, and lust are each other's partners in crime, in business and entertainment.

And there it is dear readers a drunken ramble I had on December 1st 2011, which ended there. I believe because the guy I was seeing came over and we had sex haha ironic isnt it? I decided to post this blog out of sheer entertainment. I didn't edit anything, so all the grammar mistakes and misspellings can be intrupreted how you like. But for now raise your glass (of pino) and give a cheers to the Fabulous Ds!!!